Saturday, 30 January 2010


There is bread on my bed.

It is wrapped up in clingfilm and is left over from a pub lunch I had yesterday. It should really be in the kitchen. Nevermind, it smells nice.

I'm pretty much a failure when it comes to getting work done. This could alternatively be viewed as being a winner at procrastination. YEAH. Sadly I think this accolade is not one to be celebrated. It is a massive problem when you consider that I have an 8 page dissertation draft due in now less than 2 weeks, and a max 8 page essay and a max 15 page essay due the week afer that. Hurrah. I did write a bit today, and when I say a bit I mean I wrote about half a page on Roman citizenship, if that. Woops. Better luck tomorrow? Yeah right.

Procrastination is a problem I have had for years. At school I did not have to study, I was naturally clever and seldom challenged by any work posed to us. And thus, I did not learn to revise or study. Which turned out to be a bit of a problem when it came to university. Admittedly I'm a little better than I was in the earlier years of my degree, but I'm still not very good. This is not aided by a boyfriend who will not get up early if he does not have to (he actually recommends his friends not to contact him before 3pm), but who is so damn cuddly and warm and cute when he sleeps. This results in me being unwilling to wrench myself out of bed to do any work. When I eventually do, and shower, and make-up and hair-dry and dress, and eat... before you know it it's mid/late afternoon. And then of course there's the lure of tv and the internet. When eventually I do get round to doing some work it's much later and I've wasted the best part of the day. I do find I'm better able to study in the library environment, but then there's the whole issue of getting ready to go to the library... goodness I sound like some awful lazy bastard. I'd assure you that I'm not, but I'm afraid that would be a lie. Guilty as charged. Like that? Guilty as charged, law student...haha? No really don't laugh, it was bad.

I'm not sure what my point is in all of this. Basically I can't get my head in gear, in 'the zone', to study. A skill I'm sure I should have learnt by age 22. Let's bring on the job market and the lack of essays and exams in the future! Let's pretend that the work sphere isn't stressful and deadline obsessed. Yeah, denial. Works for me!


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